they are gone

my parents are on thier way to the holy land and i cried alot today.
really alot.
till the point that my eyes hurt.

anyway i cried.
why?
because...
1. i'm going to miss them dearly.
2. i might see them and touch them the last time today.
3. i'm scared

i'm really scared
even though i got everyone's support and encouragement.
i've mention this before i think.
but i just want to say it again.
i've never been fully incharge of the house and my brother full time before and for the next one month would be a life challanging experience for me.

i left them before for 3 weeks before to taiwan.
for that i was away and they are at home.
now they leave me for 4 week.
they are away and i'm at home.

news about who should really take care of my brother was on my mind since the 1st of december.
it wasnt clear till today itself that i throw in the towel and hand in my resignation letter to bossini.
with that i aint working anymore and become a full time house brother.

now now.
let me have a quiet moment on my own and pray hard for my parents that they will be ok over there.