sorry brother. I had to do it

am pissed.
darn piss with him.
but what controls my anger is the fact that he's a special kid.
no where he can go.
not special school.
only normal school.
he's a middle kid.

*sobs*

this are family issues that rarely people see in me.
they wont believe.
i dont blame them if they dont.
they just laugh.
coz they see me as perfect, but i am actually not.


more and more friends getting engaged.
happy fucking people.

sadist i am.
but i dont care
as long i happy and you dont disturb my peace, everything should be ok