What do you do?

at times when you know something wrong is going to happen or already happen and knowing that you can correct at that instance to make a difference in the future just sucks.

i got to buck up alot in my training now. I slack too much. I couldnt be the one person that i was back in my army bmt days. its just so wrong. i have to change.

and and friday was like hell lah, had this defence tactic lesson and the whole squad was like practically killed lah. ahahaha. really, and thats just the warm up but i like. it reminds me the days in army. haha. shit. i really need to put army aside. its really killing me in there having police and army mixture.

and guess what, i was kill lah last night by my bed. i was reading my book when suddenly the next time i realise my book was on the floor and it was darn. haha. fell asleep ah. i guess i was that tired. haiz. need to revcover my body asap before next week training.


anyway, i was on the way home yesterday on my bike when i realise that i am a very dangerous rider. haha. darn man. i mean, squeezing thru between cars and stuffs shouldnt be done lah. i keep thinking of my family everytime i ride but i guess i need to get the experience on the road first before anything else that i can do. so i shall abide the teachings that i had at BBDC. Keep in the center of the lane. Stay behind vehicles while at traffic junction. not to sqeeze thru. yup. i MUST OBEY this stuffs. haha. :P then again, being a rider, i need to be aggressive a lil to be surviving well on the road.

we see where it goes.



life has been bad for me. even though i got 70% of the stuff that i wished for, i still feel unhappy with that missing 30%. its not a major factor in my life lah but it still brings the sadness at times. yeah. by my birthday, i just hope that i will be a changed person and be someone how better and achieve that 100% wishes that i wishing for.

i may look like the happiest person alive.







"What Do You Do?"

I got a one-way ticket on a hell-bound train
With nothing to lose and nothing to gain
Nobody ever taught me how to live
I'm feeling like i'm lost
like i'll never be found
I'm twisted and i'm turned around
Nobody ever taught me how to love
I'm hurting everbody i'm hurting myself
I'm desperate

So what do you do
When it all comes down on you?
Do you run and hide
Or face the truth?

So what do you do
When it all comes down on you?
Do you run and hide
Or face the truth?

If you were to tell me that i'd die today
This is what i'd have to say
I never really had the time to live
And if you were to give me just another chance
Another life, another dance
All i really want to do is love
I'm hurting everybody
I'm hurting myself
I'm desperate

So what do you do
When it all comes down on you?
Do you run and hide
Or face the truth?

So what do you do
When it all comes down on you?
Do you run and hide
Or face the truth?

When all is said and done you could be the one
With open arms and open eyes
You're jumping off the edge and hoping you can fly
Accept your fate for what it is
Into the great unknown

So what do you do
When it all comes down on you?
Do you run and hide
Or face the truth?

So what do you do
When it all comes down on you?
Do you run and hide
Or face the truth?

...got a one-way ticket on a hell-bound train
With nothing to lose and nothing to gain...