it was just sweet

i was watching tv when suddenly...

*gring gring*

i thought it would be a normal phone call from one of my relatives to check up on me to see how my brother and i are doing.
but i heard a familar voice that i last heard on wednesday.

IT WAS MY DAD LAH!
i was like so happy to hear his voice and glad that they are safe there.

then it was my mum.
i couldnt stand hearing my mum's voice.
i cried.
i do have a weak spot when it comes to mum.
haha.
cant help it, i follow my mum's genes.
mum was happy when i told her i got a medical check up for my police career.
i told her what busu told me that i'm 75% thru my application.
she's so darn happy that her doa came thru.
she started crying over the phone.

i asked why.
she say she miss my brother and me alot.
she cried along with me.
but i keep telling her, dont worry mum, everything here is alright.
i keep telling her not to think about the world, focus on your pilgrimage.
she cried and said she will.

my aunt was just behind me listening to what i said.
and all she said, faizal, you've grown.
i smiled and i went to pray.

pray that my mum's mensus would end.
pray that my parents will be safe there.
pray that my parents will perform thier haj properly.
pray that my parents will come back to Singapore safely.
pray that my parents wont need to worry about things here in Singapore.
pray that i am well to do things here.
pray that everything is going as planned.
Insyallah. i hope all this will be heard.


everytime i pray.
i would 'see' my dad everytime i close my eyes.
his words. pray son. pray.
that was his last words before we parted.
i keep sheding tears.

everytime i go into my dad's room.
i remember the feeling seeing my parents in thier purest state.
i remember the forgiveness and hugs that we had.
everyime i head in that room, water starts to clog my eyes.

this is the best time to learn about hardship in life.
w/o parents.
only support from close family members.
its a test i willing to take.
a test i want to pass.
give me strength, ya Allah.

amin




anyway, more on my life, i going for medical check up on the 11th dec, monday. yup. Uncle/aunts told me that i already been accepted just that i need to wait till i sign the contract.
geez.
so yah, i think i be a police officer very soon.
but i'm considering if being a TP/PCG officer would be great too?
options. options.

for now, i just need to lead a normal housebrother life.
i miss the working life.
i miss bossini.
i miss the girls, esp suzan, fizah, kilah.
they made my bossini life there great.

well, at least there is something i could talk about when people ask about my working experiece.
haha.
yey!

k i think thats the end of my entry.
i just came to know my gold fish is lazy and fussy! grr