dead. what is there to life?

i didnt know what got into me yesterday.
it started off well, with me being myself.
being so darn cheerful and stuff.
thats me, so care-free and happy.

till i ate for lunch and had my first break of the day yesterday........

i became moody.
i became quiet.
i didnt smile, well, only to customers.
my eyes start to turn red.
and i start to act differently.
my collegues got worried, but i didnt cared.
really.

and the best part, i dont know why i was like that.
to come and think about it, i think its really about financial and future life matters.
i'm scared of the future.
i'm sick, financially.
seriously.
i wish.
i wish i had this things settle out quickly.
i really do because 2007 is starting.















i am dead.