shy

this happen to me today.

i was standing there waiting for the train. yeah, you read it right, TRAIN. my bike in the bike shop for a lil tuning that i need to do.

so ok i was standing there waiting for the train to arrive over at novena when i saw this 2 nurses. One of them caught my eye. i look at her but glance away everytime she look back. being the shy me, i always do that.

so in the train, it was packed and it happen that we stood like close together. its not that i intentionally stand close to her but it more of coincidental. so thru out the whole journey, i keep doing the same thing, look at her and glance away if she look back. maybe because her friend is there.

so as she took a seat, i was lucky enough to found a seat seated across to her. she slept though thru the journey. later, her friend got down at admiralty and she was awake again. i then had this sudden urge to 'signal' her that i wanted to know her coz suddenly, i had this feeling she was getting down the train very soon, but fucked, my line of sight was blocked by a dumb as guy.

i was like darn it. what now what now. i was such in a panic state. haha. really. kental right? so yeah, as i saw her stood up, suddenly, we had this eye contact and there, the exchange of smile and her looking back.

i was dumbfounded. i was like, "get down the train and chase her. get down the train and chase her. get down the train and chase her" i kept repeating that for many many instances till the train door close and i regretted. urgh.

shit.
that smile of hers still replays in my short term memory and i really hope that i will bump into her again.
i really do.
if i do bump into her tmr, then i guess i am kinda lucky.
last day taking the train to work. pls god, help me!! hahah


laugh all you want, i am not that typical guy who goes up to a girl and tell her that i want to know her. i dont do that. really. i'm just plain shy. urgh.
but like what a friend of mine had told me before, if the guy is shy and its not nice for the girl to make the first move, how the hell are we going to get attached ?haha

i need to pick up some courage.
MAY THE FORCE BE WITH ME!