i really dont know what to blog abt

i got nothing to blog these days. really. its just the fact that my life have been pretty routine. ok maybe i blog about my cousin's wedding and everything that has got to do with the wedding.

my cuz wedding went ok i guess. i only attended the day they got nikah and not the actual persandingan coz i was working. darn it that i couldnt take any leave on that day. urgh

anyway, i think we have this thing about saying the angkat nikah thing once and my cuz did it once only. and after he ended that sentence, everybody was like "BAIK AH! SKALI JE SEY!! NI CONFIRM NYE NI". if you guys know me, i know nuts about malay culture and this things is soo alien to me. i look at my cousin in law and he was like, i did it 2.5 times. i mean whats the big deal.

and thru out that day, everybody in my family was like asking, "ijal bila your turn ni? when is turn to get married?" my answer was simple to them "it will not be in the near future. maybe when i'm in my late 20s, 30s. when i have a good career and stability, alot of money, happpy life, a good degree and everything else that i want to do have been accomplish, then i settle down." and the moment each one of them hear that, they kept quiet. haha. coz they know that i am serious abt it. haha.

i'm nv going to serious with anyone at this point of time. i think for the next few years it will go on. coz i dont know le. its either i DONT want to commit, or i CANT commit or i just COULDNT be bothered with relationships. maybe no right girl have struck the right place in my heart. maybe need to ask my ex how she struck my heart way back in 2004. haha. how eh izyan?

:) i just smile and think back what i have gone thru in life and i think its been a joyful 23 yrs of a roller coaster ride. I do regret at time in my life about what i did but i think w/o it, i wont learn the hardships in life and be where i am. alhamdulilah.