its a sad thing.

i dont know if its a special thing i have in me or what but i some how cam roughly know something bad that is going to happen.
its like i felt the urge to see my handphone when i am not suppose to while in camp during training.
and there it is, the bad news.

"Ijal, wak Jamal meninggal" (ijal, wak Jamal passed away)
thts the message from my dad i got.
people know i am this happy go lucky guy who would always smile even there's nothing to smile abt.
but the moment i saw that message, i was very gloomy. yup. thats what my friend describe my facial expression earlier in the day.

i aint close to that uncle of mine though
but i know he's part of an important family who i am close with
and seeing him suddenly lying motionless whilst being covered up seem so different.
i just dont know.

i cant go to the cemetery because of my brother.
he doesnt have the keys and i got to be home to open the door for him
my dad actually wanted to be the one doing the fetching of my brother, but i think he's needed in the family even though its not on his side of his family.
and yah, with my decision and my parents agreement, i did something good.

and the saddest part, my auntie cried on my shoulders when i told her i need to go and i hugged her and tell her everything is going to be ok.
i really dont know what to do and to say and i just told her to say stuff, bertaubat coz she and my late uncle do sometimes have bad times. well most of the time. so i just told her to taubat so everything would be ok.

and looking back.
my nenek and 2 atoks who passed away few years back passed away ard this period too. the period of my birthday.

nenek pass away 2 weeks before my birthday in 2000.
atok no.1 pass away 2/3 weeks after my birthday in the same year.
atok no.2 pass away 3 weeks after my birthday in 2005/2006. cant remember which year.

and now, my uncle pass away just 2 weeks before my birthday.
call it conincidence but strike 4?
wierd but then, its God power here. aint coincidence.


lessons to learn.
learn to forget and forgive.
be nice to your elders no matter how heartaching they could be.
always believe in your religion and do what you are told to do so.
be good, coz you wouldnt know when you go.

ok. sucks.
i slowly get over this and everything will be fine.
yup2.
i'm hoping to go out this sunday though to watch transformers.
anyone?
my treat for those schooling/not working. hahaha.

nice bribe right? PLS!!! i wouldnt want to miss that show for the world.


ok.

al fateha to my uncle aite people?
amin.