ok firstly izyan. i read your blog and i feel guilty in a way even though i know that entry is meant for someone else. you're right what you mention about forgiving everybody and you're right about me about holding grudges. i should change. and i'm really sorry for 2006 events. it should happen. i'm touching my heart and saying this. for that, i'm telling you that i had no idea why i did that to ya when we broke up. sorry again
alhamdulillah. my parents are back from tanah suci and alhamdulillah, they are ok. just that the weather changes they have been thru have make them slightly sick, just the normal coughs and high fatigue. but still i'm bersyukur they are in my arms again.
for the past 12 hours of so, i been listening to my mother's stories every minute or so to build up on our relationship. stories from how haj is REALLY performed, how she went thru, what she saw, what she felt and everything. and everytime she told me a story, i felt guilty of all the sins i made. sins that i shouldnt do. bluergh. you guys must be laughing at this but yah, my heart like was so touch and it ached when i think back of my sins.
and withing that span of 12 hrs, i was much convience that i need to buck up on my religious shit. i want to go there. i want to be the visitor of ALLAH. insya'allah.
i dont want to think much about anything else but to just be good for this year and the years to come.
i've change within that short period of time. knowing that my parents are HAJI and HAJJAH, i got to have a keep up the reputation of my parents. people will look at me. people will reflect. thats what i was thinking when i was on bed making myself sleepy.
pray hard that i change for the good and forever and i pray for you too ok? insya'allah everything will be granted. amin
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while my parents are performing thier haj, my brother and i was in the hands of my aunt who willing took full responsibilty of both of us and when she left my house yesterday, i realise she was everything to me too, apart from my mum. i thanked her soo much for putting up for my crappiness and shit that i gave her during the stay.
i never stopped thanking her. thanz cik ni.
its the 9th Jan which means i be starting a brand new life next week, 16th Jan. i hope i could excel well in it. be the best that i could be. i never did strive for the best last time. i just did the minimum. i should change. a brand new life, a new attitude.
2007 will be so interesting.
something that never thought of looking forward thinking that it will be just another new year ahead. but i guess, with all these coming to me witihin this few weeks of the new year, it will be one hell of a ride. and i think resolution can be change for the first month of the new year. after that its confirmed. right?
Revised Resolution.
1. Excel in my career.
2. Get Class 2A and 3
3. BE good, pls.
4. Stay fit
5. Get a girlfriend?
6. Stay in touch with old friends/make new friends
7.
yeah. i think thats that. hope i acheive it. i going to put this up at the end of every month. see which one i am achieving. i think no 3 and 7 i hard to keep up but i try ok. i putting 200% effort in those for sure! promise!
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ok i got an idea how to change this layout shit already.
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