for the ifs and whats

i was at work.
fun.
coz there were alot of gossips.
haha.
and small pranks we played on each other.

and i didnt know i was color blind.
really.
my collegue asked for help to get a maroon colored shorts in the storeroom.
i knew whats the product and i knew what she meant by maroon.
that shorts is available in light brown and maroon.
and to my surprise, i was told that i took the wrong color.
i thought i really did.
but i took a second look and i told her this is maroon.
she insisted saying that i was wrong and keep pointing to the light brown that she wanted.
so i asked, you want BROWN or RED?
she pointed the light brown and said, i want this maroon color in MEDIUM size ok!?

i smiled.
i need to see a doctor soon.
i'm color blind all of the sudden.


the feeling of going to the other store to take stock for a customer today seem so...

how should i put this?
i mean i think something happened.
something that i didnt see coming during that short journey.
but i dont know.
did i saw someone?
did someone saw me?
did someone talk about me when i was having that short journey?
i dont know.
i dont.


anyway, i think i seem to be so crazy.
really.
i dont know how to control my emotions.
and i'm too damn shy.
i cant talk.
as in i cant be involve in a conversation.
really.
u can talk to me, and my head will go blank.
i wonder why
maybe 11 years being the only child has its side effects i guess.
i was the only child in the family for my first 11 years of my life.
i was alone most of the time.

geez.
pity myself.
change faizal. change!


and without realising, my parents are off for haji for a month next wednesday!!!!!
o my god!
ya allah!!!
i better be prepared here in sg.
hooe everything will go smooth when they are gone.
:)
anyone want to hang over my place? hahaha......